wallie down, birdie to go

well... wallie was very laid back, which is nice, and works in a team, which is very nice -- good for me and my procrastination habits. her politics match mine, re education and re the world. so, overall fine--if i end up there i will not be upset. it will probably be a lot easier than last year, and she's very easy going, so it should be less stress. but, only 2 drawbacks... like most teachers (i begin to think), she doesn't actually teach much, as far as i can tell. students lacked simple skills and didn't take their work seriously. but as i said i start to think that this is near-universal. if birdie is the same way i may well go with wallie. oh, the other drawback--not very authoritative. i need to learn to be strong if i'm going to push push push kids to succeed, which as we all know is my goal. hm.

i miss camilly! i'm sad that she's gone (possibly only temporarily) but at the same time i feel relieved and even liberated. is it wrong to cut yourself loose from a drowning person? --perhaps neither right nor wrong, just necessary for survival.

gotta sleep if i'm going to be in birdie's classroom at 7:30!!